The Corona Clarion

Lives hang from a thread.

Actually life always does hang from a thread.

Except that the realisation of it does not knife its way like this.

But these are different days.

Different in a massive way. In the way that these kind of days have not been seen in a few generations. Days when a virus seems to lurk all around. And the humanity goes about dodging, or ‘attempting to dodge’. So we sanitise our hands obsessively, we clean our homes religiously, we bathe like humans possessed every time there is an ‘exposure’ and we flee from all humans except family. Ah well.  And then there are the days when ration or fruits and vegetables are to be brought in. The most dreaded days. First there is the fear-ridden stress of how the one who goes to pick them would be duly protected. And once the bagfuls arrive, we stare at them as if they were some bombs ticking away. After realising ‘you got to do what you got to do’, a bucket is filled with hot water with ample soap and dettol poured over. And then whatever can be washed is washed and the rest are wiped and wiped and yet wiped some more to erase all possibilities of the virus. It’s a blind stroke actually...  we really do not know how and where it actually strikes. They very mysterious virus. It keeps baffling the humanity every now and then.

But as days go by, in quarantine, and in the circles of waking, cooking, cleaning, eating, washing, cooking, sleeping... gradually the fear and the doom that rises like a black snake in all the news, begins to wear itself out. A flood of Youtube videos watched, rapids of whatsapp messages exchanged and enough of note-sharing later, we are left with a silence that stares out of all pairs of eyes. What then...? You cannot step out and hop into your car and long-drive the questions away. You cannot go drown into the din of malls and binge away the questions either. You cannot give yourself the excuse of jobs, projects, chores, shopping, this and that, that and this... anymore. What then...? You cannot meet a friend over coffee and give yourself the false comfort of sharing stories of how life is and how you are moving... at least something is moving...  your relationship, your job, your marriage, your household, a new house maybe, a new car, a new achievement, even an award... You cannot tell such stories anymore. What then?

Well, finally, all there’s left to go is go inside. To the chaos that’s been breeding out of fears, fears and more fears. So you dive inside. The first few times might get the wind out of your wits. You might just get so shocked at the weights you carry. And then, as you begin to turn to prayer, to the Divine, shedding yourself layer by layer, you begin to pick out the weeds from the garden and well, if you keep at the Spring-cleaning, you might start sprouting one Spring within.

Chances are, the 2020 kind of Spring may not get repeated for some time. A few generations maybe.

The question is: are we going to start blooming up?